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[23 Apr 2007|06:10pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I don't have anyone to say this to anymore, but when I once did, this is how it felt.
I borrowed this from Stephanie Horner's blog, it's really true.

if i'm going down,
i'm going to do it with style.
you won't hear me surrender,
you won't hear me confess.
because you left me with nothing,
but i've worked with less.

Other than that, I've decided I'm going to have to be nice, like I was questioning in my last entry. I'm going to college in the fall, after all, and I'm not going to know mostly anyone (which I am so excited about) and that is a great chance for a fresh start if I ever saw one. I'm really lucky to have Justin in my life. I'm not going to brag about his accomplishments, because that doesn't matter when it comes down to a partner. What does matter is that he treats me right (Even when he does maul me :) ) And that we make eachother smile. Today is his 18th birthday, I called him at midnight, and he told me I was early :) But yeah, I'm not out with him because his mom hates me, and that bothers me a lot. I didn't do anything to deserve to be hated, not even allowed to go to my own boyfriend's birthday dinner? I'm going to have to reconcile with her, not only because Justin asked me to, but because she can only complain about me so much before he starts to agree. I guess I wouldn't be as upset about her hating me if I had done ANYTHING to deserve it, but all i've done is made Justin happy, and you would think she could be thankful for that. However, the new nice Katie is going to have to forgive those who trespass against her.

"It's a list of old right wing bullshit I'm sick of hearing. Forgive those who trespass against us? No one better trespass against me or i'll tear him a new you-know-what!" -Kurt Vonnegut


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[13 Apr 2007|01:30am]

The Everything Test

There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all.

Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-)

You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about self than concerned about others, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are adventurious (100%), outgoing (100%), romantic (86%), innovative (86%).

Old Geezer100%
College Student64%
Punk Rock60%
Life Experience

Your political views would best be described as Socialist, whom you agree with around 78% of the time.
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Working Class. You make more than 45% of those who have taken this test, and 82% less than the U.S. average.

If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
By the way, your hottness rank is 69%, hotter than 81% of other test takers.

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[13 Apr 2007|12:16am]
[ mood | happy ]

Happy two months to me and Justin. He's so great. I fear that my fear of losing him is going to make him want to leave me though. It's an unfounded fear I'm sure, but it's still there. However, my worry for losing him should not prevent me from being happy with him, and it isn't.

We got into bidding wars on Ebay today, and watched Little Miss Sunshine. It was so cute. Heres a survey too, just in case you were curious.

1. What do you say most when you're trying not to curse?
I agree with Ethan, I just fuckin say it.

2. Do You Own An iPod?
I'm going to buy one soon I think.

3. What Person On Your Top 8 Do You Talk To The Most?
Justin. Everyone else is too cool.

4. What Time Is Your Alarm Clock Set To?
645 M-F

5. Do You Want To Fall In Love?
Too late :)

6. Do You Wear Flip-Flops When It's Cold?
I did a few days ago

7. Would You Rather Take The Picture Or Be In The Picture?
Thats why I do the arm sticky-out thing.

8. What Was The Last Movie You Watched?
Little Miss Sunshine!

9. Do Any Of Your Friends Have Children?
Not really.

10. Has Anyone Ever Called You Lazy?
Yeah. They were right, sorta.

11. Do You Ever Take Medication To Help You Fall Asleep?

13. Do You Prefer Regular Or Chocolate Milk?
Regular, actually.

14. Has Anyone Told You A Secret This Week?
Secrets are pointless. No one gives a fuck who you're in love with this week. Or better yet, who you have or have not fucked.

15. When Was The Last Time You Had Starbucks?
I dont like coffee.

16. Can You Whistle?
Justin sorta taught me

17. Do You Have A Trampoline In Your Back Yard?
I did at Jc's! But no. I want one.

18. Do You Think People Talk About You Behind Your Back?
Who cares? I've come to the conclusion that no one notices me enough to talk shit, and if they do, good for them.

19. Did You Watch Cartoons As A Child?
I still do.

20. What Movie Do You Know Every Line To?
Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Finding Nemo, Almost all Disney movies really.

23. Do You Own Any Band T-Shirts?
Not so much anymore.

24. What Is Your Favorite Salad Dressing?
Salad? Ew. But I like Italian Dressing, if only because it's almost all Garlic.

25. Is anyone in love with you?
I hope Justin is. He SAYSSS he is, but who knows :)

26. Do You Do Your Own Dishes?
I rinse and put them in the dishwasher.

27. Ever Cry In Public?

30. Do you think you could ever be in love?

31. Would You Ever Date Anyone Covered In Tattoos?

32. What Did You Do Before This?
Updated Lj.

33. When Was The Last Time You Slept On The Floor?
Ummm At Sams while everyone else was drinking ON A SCHOOL NIGHT AND I MISSED HALF MY DAY BITCHES. "Oh Katie we're going to school I swear!" Then we wake up at ELEVEN

34. How Many Hours Of Sleep Do You Need To Function?
4. I'm a bionic insect :)

36. Are Your Days Full And Fast Paced?
Not lately, and Im loving it.

37. What are you doing right now?
This survey, talking to Justin about games for our DS

38. Do you use sarcasm?
Use probably isn't the right world for this sentance, but yes.

39. Have You Ever Been In A Fight?
Physically? No.

40. Are You Picky About Spelling And Grammar?

41. Have You Ever Been To Six Flags?
No, I want to though.

42. Have you seen someone get beaten up?
In person? If I have I dont remember.

43. Do You Get Along Better With The Same Sex Or The Opposite?
Opposite. Girls annoy me. Most guys annoy me too, but lesser of two evils you know.

44. Do you like mustard?

45. Do You Sleep On Your Side, Stomach, Or Back?

46. Do You Watch The news?
Yes, I like to. However, if one more crazed gunman cuts into my jeopardy time, I'm going to freak the fuck out.

47. How Did You Get Your Scars?
Okay story. Once I was making oven french fries and I went to pull them out of the oven and I leaned against the pan, so now I have this cresent shaped scar on my tummy. It HURT and it's pretty big but it's gotten smaller. I'd say its about an inch and a half long. OH and once when I was five I went to jump on our couch to say goodbye to my dad when he went to go fishing and I slipped and cracked my head open on our windowsill. I still have the scar on my forehead but you cant see it unless you really try. ASK ME ABOUT IT!

48. Who Was The Last Person To Make You Mad?
That bastard who outbid us for brainage.

49. Do you like anyone?
Hehe JFA!

50. What Is The Last Thing You Purchased?
Hungry Howies.

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[12 Apr 2007|01:56am]
[ mood | nostalgic ]


Livejournal username: perfectxfailure


Blurty first, if you're going in chronological order.

Nostalgia makes my head spin! Here I am on the verge of adulthood, and I can recall everything I was ever upset about at 13. Wow.

Thank god for online diaries. I would never have memories were it not for them.

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[16 Mar 2007|12:46am]
I dont understand why I never update my livejournal unless something is wrong. Heres some news. Somethings wrong!

Know why?

Because NOTHING is wrong.

Nothing that I actually care about anyway. My family has been being boug as of late (Ice-water on my head today to wake me up...fucking cool...So much bad shit happened my mom started calling me Caesar before i left the house today. Ides of March. What what.)

Justin is amazing. I cant believe how perfect we are together. It may not be possible to be that perfect, which in itself is imperfect, so its possible :) He also was the one to tell me that...because I cant follow deductive reasoning. He's the treasurer of the English Club at U of M...and they had their first meeting today...and I went because it seemed cool ( I like English. Nice language. Im actually fluent, its cool.) and Justin is so excited about it, and because he wore his suit and it looks sooooooooooooo good on him that Its unbelievable. OH about college....DONT BOTHER BEING WORRIED! Its SO anticlimactic....And no one even pays attention to you. Of course, we were there at like 630 so Justin said the "bustle" was gone...but still...boo. Of course, that was Just at U of M D. We went and looked at the science building and the History building where his classes are and its really a nice campus. There really arent too many attractive people there though...so those of you who were hoping to meet a person who was both sexy AND studious are out of luck as far as D goes. Hey, at least I gave you warning. But...im pretty tired...so sleepy time.

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[06 Mar 2007|01:16am]
I need anger management. I dont really have much to be angry about, now that I mention it. I got mad because I dropped my electric mixer while trying to put it back in my closet...and I broke my closet door...off. Sort of. I dont know why, sometimes I just get upset, actually, I do know why, its people. I stopped talking to all my "friends" and just lived with Jc because he was my best friend, he never made fun of me or made me feel inferior...for the first year anyway. I just, I dont know, The more people I meet, the more people I hang out with, the more people just come and go, the more I realize

Who needs it?

Why would I want to have worthless people stomp in to my life and leave it for the worse? Why do I date people who I know I can do better than, and yet somehow get upset when they settle on someone other than me? I know that I have more endearing qualities than these people (Read: This blog, multisyllabic sentances, etc.) but for some reason, Im not the first choice for people. Its been for a semi good reason (age, with John [yes, he was right, eight years, fuck, he would be dead before I was even ready to have children]) and for no reason at all (Im not the pretty one. Ok, we get it. Someday, no one will be pretty, Then where will you be?) And you SAY you want people to like you for something other than looks, but you really dont. It is THE most insulting thing in the entire world. I dont wear thongs. I wear cute underwear that WON'T give me hemmrhoids. (Not ME personally, but its a proven fact. Plus, think about the mechanics of a thong...its just gross, lets be honest.) What do I get from this guy? "So, you dont wear thongs or nothin like that?" Uh, No. I'm not 15, I dont need to do that for someone to find me attractive anymore, and if you actually think of that as intriuging, then you need to grow up. You however are supposed to be grown, 23 and all, even though you havent really accomplished anything. What the fuck are you doing dating/hanging out with 17 year olds if you're 23 anyway? Nine to five five days a week. You make a living, sure, but...thats all. Its just a living. I dont know why I let people I obviously dont mesh with, or even desire to mesh with, bother me. Its amazing. You overlook something for so long, and then one day, you cant anymore....

Every day...you amaze me more. A junior in college and you're 17? (18 in April, but you know ) I have known you since June 24th, 2004 (Your graduation party) But since you've grown up, literally, 6'3? I cant resist admitting that I admire you. I love hugging you. "It must be nice to always have some chest to lay your head on" and it IS. Its nice to be able to talk like myself without someone getting offended/confused. Its an AMAZING feeling. I love it. I love YOU. I love how I can just be myself around you, I love how you value me at the level I actually WANT to be valued at. It doesnt hurt that of course I cant keep my hands off you, but you know. I tend to date losers in their twenties (Dead nuts. Look at my track record, shall we?) And its really nice to have someone my age who..well, you know
But I digress. My life, is amazing. My gigantic boyfriend is coming over tomorrow, and we're going to do dorky things that dorky people do (You caught Rhinovirus! <3333333333333333333333333333333)

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Uhm [25 Feb 2007|02:07pm]



That I

I dont know where Im going with this and its been a week since ive listened to panic so I dont know why that song is still in my head. When I get to typing really fast my laptop kinda shakes, maybe because it is actually resting on my lap. weird. June 24, 2004 was the day I met you because Kyle didnt want to go to your grad party alone...and I cant believe how tall you are now...

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Have you ever [03 Feb 2007|11:22am]
[ mood | tired ]

Thought so much about random abstract things that your head hurts? I have

Nothing deep, just
Who am I going to go to prom with
What am I doing with my life
How did we as a species get here

Ok, so it started shallow and went deep. My mind is an in-ground swimming pool. Yay.

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Where is my mind? Honest... [30 Jan 2007|06:34pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I dont know. My head hurts a lot. I have to take one of those American School mail-in classes beccause I am a fuck up (read: my entire life so far) or I wont graduate on time. Mr. Salvatore ACTUALLY said *looking at my transcript* "You're screwed"

Thank you sir!

In other news, I need 110 dollars for that class, which I dont have, because I cant hold on to money to save my life. I also want (soon to be need if it keeps freaking out) a new cell phone. So thats a total of 250 dollars I need from my grandma/uncle soon. Like, TODAY. I dont know where they are, visiting John in the hospital I bet. I'm gonna call them here in a sec. Someone died on the 3rd floor of my moms apartment building in a fire the other day, or maybe it was today, because today is the day she told me about it. Im so glad she wasnt there, but then, im not, because I know why she wasnt there. Today sarah gave Ian and Ricky a partial ride home, because she got a flat and we had to stop at her house to fix it. Ian walked the rest of the way, and Ricky and I fell asleep while she was getting ready to hang out with Branden. So she finally did, and we took ricky home. Then we went to wendys, got the Chilli I am about to destroy, and now shes at Brandens for two more hours, then we will probably do something but I dont know what. Ehh. My kidneys hurt. OMG someone is knocking at my door...hold on...

Ok, evidently not, but I swear I heard someone knocking. I hate being here by myself at night. Id love it during the day but the sun sets at like 5 in the winter. I do like winter, but not after december. Eh. John is really upsetting me. He keeps saying he's going to think about it and put consideration into what he's doing..then he just keeps running back to fatty. Maybe its because shes so far away (uh, Grand Rapids anyone? thats not a fucking walk in the park) and im right here, but hey, more the reason to be with me. Also, I wouldnt fuck around on him/use him as a fallback plan, but you know, sometimes it takes a while for people to open their eyes. Me too apparently. Rich, well, shit, I hate talking in stream of consciousness (conSCIENCE? whats that? <-sarah at chineese reading her fortune cookie yesterday) but heres whats up:

Jason Rideout is a good buddy of mine, and he really wanted to meet sarah, so last saturday (not this past one, LAST one) we (me sarah britni) went to his house, and watched him and steve play dead rising ( I want to play that so badly..I digress..) and after, hes like hey were going to party at Richards, youre welcome to come guys. So we go, rich lives in an upper on Biddle (West Jefferson to all of you non-Wyandotians) in Rouge. We party. A bunch of things happen. Rich seems really nice, but hes the sort of person I would have HATED were we in highschool together. He has openly admitted he doesnt care for acadamia (oh yes, we get along smashingly) and it botheres me. I mean, he's not stupid, hes just average, but I dont like average when it comes to things like that. Why? Because I'm a NERD. There, I said it. But I dont know, maybe I should give people a chance. No I shouldnt. That would be too normal and fair. Plus, I gave John a chance and look what he did/is doing to me. I hate it when people make me promises, They NEVER get kept. Not even significant others either, but my own family doesnt. My parents didnt/dont. Its not healthy, and its not right. I dunno. At least I know that it COULD (and lets face it, probably has) affected me negatively, but, I dont think it has caused me like irreversible damage. That whole, being let down a lot your entire life thing, could put anyone in a bad mood, but Im not terminally in a bad mood. Just realistic, bordering on cynical and jaded.

Where IS my mind?

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Where is my mind? [25 Jan 2007|02:48pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I bent the O Chem final over and made it my bitch. The only persons who got done before me were Jake and Danielle. I hope I actually did well and just didnt fly though it and get an E. That would be amazingly bad. The Brit Lit final was...LONG. Mr Baker makes these epic scantron tests. Someone was like "You always make weird multiple choice tests" and baker was like "Yeah..A..B...Gamma??? Wait, where is Gamma? Epsilon? I always mix those two up" And thats why hes a good teacher, not many that I know of are that quick witted. I seriously went to sleep pencil in had during the second half of the (one hundred quesiton! with MULTIPLE possibile answers...I was coloring like a madman) test. Then I woke up and finsihed, then went back to sleep, only to wake up raising my hand because he asked who would be in Shakepere on Monday. I know some people in my class who shouldnt be. Its going to try my patience a lot, but hey, maybe they'll drop. Tonight, I drive with Caleb from 5 to 7 then last day of class from 7 to 9..and the test. What the fuck, do I have a sign floating above me that says "Please administer me a gigantic scantron test"? So, right now, I have to take a shower, do my study guide for Dt, then clean the bathroom and vaccum the living room. And hallway. Fuck.

With your feet in the air
And your head on the ground
Way out in the water

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[22 Jan 2007|11:10pm]
Fuck you Aurora
You took my only friend

Chem lab notebook due in tweleve hours..what?! Alright Katie, go do it. You've done worse, and it wasnt even nessicary.

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[11 Jan 2007|03:25pm]
Its really cute. I love the medical library. In about four years i'm going to need one. Isnt that scarry? Its like a countdown has been started on the rest of my life. Im scared, but its going to happen weather im ready for it or not. I used to think I didnt want to live on campus, because, fuck that. But now Ive noticed how much fun people had with it, and im thinking I want to do it now. I dont want to be too far away though, at all. Thats my big issue. So on my way to John Stavers yesterday, it hit me. Like I had an Epiphany.

Why dont I live on campus at Wayne State?

Its about ten minutes away from where I live now. It would be almost no change whatsoever. I could still see everyone every day, but I would get the experience of being at college. Im not sure though, I really dont want a roommate, and when youre a freshman thats the only real option. I'm going to see how things look in April. May 1st is the deadline to apply. Im not even sure if Wayne State is letting me in yet, I applied today (via mail) so I wont know until February probably. Maybe even later then that, because Im taking the ACTS on February 10th. Im worried about that, but only the math part, I pretty much have everything else on lock. I'm going to take a few practice tests though, and see whats up.

Its about 318 now, and the bus Im taking leaves at 336, if its actually on time. So if I left now, I could makea pit stop at the bathroom to change out of my scrub pants. Nevermind, Im wearing jeans, I didnt feel like changing into the scrubs today. Also, I got a B+ on my final. I could have done better, but I just didnt study. A high B for not studying at all is pretty good though, if I do say so my cocky ass self.

My fingers hurt from this. Or, sorry, my metacarpals hurt. Sarah is being such a bitch lately. Ive noticed more and more how she doesnt do anything that will not directly benefit her. Its nauseating. Its about time we all grew up, after all, our eminent future is only Five months and two days away <3

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I figured out whats wrong with me [02 Jan 2007|06:52am]

Go read even a little bit of that, and tell me it doesnt even sound remotely like me, because youd be totally lying.

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Hahahhah 15/15 [30 Dec 2006|02:53am]
[x] Woke up at 4pm because Ricky and I were up all night
[x] Went to Rickys, then to the Grind
[x] Hung out at the Grind, then went for food with Sarah Ethan Emily and Sarahs cousin Ashley
[x] Back to the Grind
[x] Citgo with Leslie Jake and Ricky
[x] Grind
[x] Lazer Tag with people mentioned on trip to Citgo, plus others
[x] We dominated (not really though..we suck.)
[x] Dennys with Ricky Scott Lisa Brittany and Jessica
[x] Aparrently they went to a show in Toledo, got drunk, and jumped some bitch
lmao. Only them. And then I came home.

Our lives are so random if we'd only let them be.

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Today [29 Dec 2006|04:01am]
Could have been a LOT better. John is being a weirdo again, and Im not sure why. I keep thining its something I did wrong, but then it really cant be. I dont know why he's being a cock about it though.

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Also [28 Dec 2006|05:00am]
efface \ih-FAYS\, transitive verb:

1. To cause to disappear by rubbing out, striking out, etc.; to erase; to render illegible or indiscernible.
2. To destroy, as a mental impression; to wipe out; to eliminate completely.
3. To make (oneself) inconspicuous.

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First [28 Dec 2006|04:25am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

[x]I picked narrator as my name because I always thought that if someone made a movie/wrote a book/syndicated a tv series about my life, that I would be the one to narrate it. Im not sure why, but maybe its because I have the best vocabulary out of anyone that I know. No, I kid. It would be because i'm the only one who knows how i'm feeling all of the time, even though Ive noticed that its a fault, or maybe a positive of mine, that I want to talk incessantly about my feelings. I care about how I feel. Interestingly enough, I care about how you feel too, so lets talk.
[x]Katie Elizabeth Baker
[x]September 9th, 1989
[x]I should write a long life story entry, to really explain why I feel the way I do about things, and it would be really deep and personal, but its ok because I think im ready for it
[x]My old livejournal was perfectxfailure, and I read it sometimes, and It scares me, because I still remember every single detail about my life and where I was back then. And I know that as much as I have changed, apparently, I have still stayed the same person
[x]I'm old for my age. Maybe its because of all the things ive been though, but right now isnt the time to be posting the life story, because its 430 in the morning, and I have pizza rolls cooling in the kitchen. I have to be awake for my intake session for therapy at 915 though, so more on that tomorrow.

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